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Sunday, October 21

Oh Again?

Today I woke up early again around 7am.Actually it has been the same for about 3 weeks, I would be sleeping till 10am normally but waking up early is better I guess, because I have more daytime span to spend.

Besides I will be much more glad if I could get over this stupid pathetic mood as well..

Well I am not kidding.. In the morning I looked in the mirror but it felt like I am meaningless. Something is wrong and I cant explain to myself. I absorb all the negative thoughts and then I am trying to give off cheer&happiness and motivation to spread all around but how about myself?

"Tailor cant sew his own rip"

There is always strength in me to help my friends but I lack of it when it comes to me. I have no cure for myself, no motivation to go through and there is no one to recognise. If I always smile, it doesnt mean I am always glad..How strong do you think I could be? I am a humanbeing as well.. For sure I will have some weak points.

I spend my days in vain by waiting for happiness to come my way. I expect too much I guess..

Yeah sometimes I feel like that suicidal as I mean nothing maybe..

Why people think that I am the happiest? I just might not be able to take this anymore :(

I have many friends that I cant even count. But none of them took the first step yet. I just bother to greet and ask how they are almost everyday and they avoid of telling me simple hi. I knock at least 10 friends' door and there is no feedback.. Or I am the only one who just give disturbance.

It doesnt have to be my crush to text me in order to make me excited. It could be anyone random or an old friend... I can admit that I love and care people.

Whoever you are, I have always depended on kindness of strangers