It is around 12:30am right now but I feel as if it is 5pm.. Time is always quick whenever I am glad, whenever I dont want to waste.. And it is very slow whenever I get bored. I dont know what to do but for sure I dont wanna be dissolved like sugar in water again because I will get hurt first and then hurt.. You can never know how evil I am if I want because I am cursed and tended...But obviously running away is always the best solution in some circumstances.. Running away from myself and be lost again before no one recognizes my absence..
Night covers everything that has to be hidden with its darkness, everything sleeps except thoughts and nightmares. Even nightmares get wilder and wilder, more tyrant to torture my soul as if I am paying for the cheer I have whole day long. But night also brings grief and the pieces of the evil. At that time I only wish one thing: Wake me up, wake me up to the pure daylight but I get worried again, what if I get blinded? What if I cant see and live? Then the breath I take ... it will be burden for me more than usual. So stamp my mouth with your virtues and leave me alone there with my own solitude..