I really feel so weird these days.Sudden mood change and I swear that i really dont know how I am gonna fix the things I have been constantly breaking.. I am worried, terribly worried because I am scared of being lost.. I am on the edge and nobody recognizes.. I am slowly fading away and I erase the trace behind my back so that there is nothing left because I dont want to put pain nor sorrow but I really sense that the irresistible end is coming closer..I wanna be a permanent smile on people's face at all, there is nothing more important than this. Because when you leave this earth, you take everything about love with you..
That is why I put care and love on people as much as I can because I feel that someday people will not feel me eternal.. I have such a weak point that I can never get mad at any person for a long time even if I tell them that I will not talk to them anymore..Anyway
I just wonder how does it feel to be forgotten.
It would give me less pain instead of staying as a heart breaker. I dont want to set anyone on fire. I just hate myself because of having that much confliction.Would it really worth?
So why I am struggling for?? Damn I am so confused, my heart and my mind hits each other like two enemies..
Time, time and time... Please dont stab me anymore as I am really drowned in my complicated thoughts.. I am scared, more scared than I seem to be..